I am so lost and confused. I lost my mom earlier this year and have been going through hell dealing with it. I was so devasated and my husband wasn't really there to comfort me (we haven't had sex in months and wouldn't even hold each other). I turned to this guy I use to date in my mid 20's and he was giving me the attention I guess I needed. One thing lead to another and we ended up have sex. I was so guilty and told my husband of 17 yrs what happened. He told me he forgives me but there will be consequences. Well now I have discovered what those consequences are. He has been using escorts and had a prepaid cell phone and prepaid credit card. He is on those sex dating sites and has a craigslist ad. He has been busted and he says he wants to work it out. He says he did this because of what I did. I'm so sorry I feel he took this WAY to far. I asked him for a divorce. He wants to work it out. I feel disgusted when I look at him, I know I am the cause of all this. I honestly didn't want to be with that guy. I was heart broken, scared, lonely and grieving. I'm not making excuses for what I did, but I don't think I will be able to accept how far he went with this, and he only stopped because he was busted and saw what it did to me. I have been going to grief counseling, I'm on meds. I can't live like this, his work takes him to different cities around us and I saw he has been in contact with girls from those cities. I said we could try to work it out. But I can't do it. I can't worry about every time he is late or won't answer my call or text. So I think today I will let him know I can't do it. I don't really have any family here except a brother that I am having to help. I think I'm scared of leaving the only think I've known for 17 yrs, but I can't do it. I look at my husband and I can't believe he did this. I believe he will do it again. He says he threw away that cell phone, I don't believe that. I believe he would still be contacting girls had he not been busted. I just busted him a week ago. Any advise out there?