Oh ((((Firestorm)))) I am so sorry you are going through this. Welcome to PC and I am sure others will be very supportive with you. You can come and vent as you need to and don't be worried about being judged, others here will understand and can relate.

Guilt is actually a normal response in this type of situation. Actually, about a month ago a good number of the Bill Cosby victims sat in an interview and every one of them talked about this guilt you are discribing and they also dicussed why they did not "tell". Actually, a few of them did tell their agent who replied to them that no one will believe them so they better forget it and move on. Bill Cosby, even with so many women coming forward is still denying it and even "his" wife is standing by him. This is something some wives do, they believe the abuser, they choose to remain in denial.

Abusers typically blame their victims, and Bill Cosby was no exception. He was so confident that he would choose to insist on blaming his victims to their face too. He had a family too, his own family choose to take the denial route.

The person who is responsible ALWAYS is the ABUSER. If there is anger, discomfort and hurt in his own family IT IS HIS FAULT NOT YOURS. It doesn't matter who gets angry, what people choose to stand in denial, who will not talk to who anymore because all of that is THE ABUSER'S FAULT.

You have your parents on your side, that is what is important. Abusers can seem nice, smart, upstanding in a lot of ways, they are good at convincing others it can't be them but instead is the victim's fault, that the victim is lying or attention seeking in some way. Sadly, as I have seen take place myself, PEOPLE DO CHOOSE TO BELIEVE THE ABUSER. Often an abuser will have a charm about him, will seem safe, even to other individuals that have been victims by other people, they can even comfort these people and they feel he is a "nice guy". And sometimes these people will play along with an abuser in partake in ganging up on the victim to upset the victim too. I have had that happen myself. The abuser is SO GOOD at turning it around and acting like "they" are the victim, they can be very convincing IT'S PRETTY DISGUSTING.

You have to do what is right, you know you were victimized and while it can be hard (as all the victims of Bill Cosby do say), you are doing the right thing by telling the truth.

Think about this, there are over 50 women who were victims of Bill Cosby, 50. None of them knew each other, only a few told their agents who told them no one would believe them. You are doing the right thing because it is possible this individual molested others too. And, now that you have made this KNOWN, this abuser will be impaired if he tries to abuse again. Typically, these individuals have abused more than one, especially when they get away with it.

Do not self blame or allow yourself to feed into the guilt, it is normal to feel guilt though.
You have to self comfort and understand you are having a normal reaction and that it is not your fault.

(((Caring Supportive Hugs)))
OE