He's not going to phone me, is he?

I wait up for two whole hours when I should be sleeping, and he's not going to phone.

My friend said he was staying over at his place tonight and would have the Boy call me. He still hasn't. He's in the %#@&#! CITY and he's not going to phone me. Probably only here until tomorrow. But he's HERE. And I don't think he's going to contact me.

Dammit. I'm pathetic. Here I am a sobbing mess about a boy who doesn't care about me the same way I care about him ... and all I want right now is for him to be here. I just want a hug again. I want to see him again.

Crap. Now the crying is worse.

Love's a *bleep*. Life's a *bleep*. Boys are stupid. Remind me to never ever care about one this much ever again, please.

Why me. What did I ever do? It's not fair. I know life isn't supposed to be fair, but I really wanted him to be here. Now he isn't. Yes, I'm self-centred.

I miss him so much. It hurts too much inside. He's only been gone what - a week now? I can't do this. I just want to see him again.

Actually right now I'd settle for hearing his voice.

And nobody is around IRL for me to beat up or force them to hug me. Haha.

Emo Christina out.