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Originally Posted by confusedbyself
If everyone does feel/notice it since childhood, why is there such confusion among adults about what is going on?
Just trying to figure some of my own world out.
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imagine someone walking up to you and telling you that its not normal for someone to go online to a mental health website and post. wouldnt you be confused and wonder whats going on, why is coming to psych central not normal, whats wrong with me, whats wrong with what I am doing, Im not hurting that person why are they telling me this, am I different now....
thats what its like to grow up with DID and everything is ....your.... normal and then a treatment provider diagnoses you with a "disorder" the word disorder means not normal.
muddling through confusion begins......so something is wrong with me, why are they saying this, what does this mean, my having others in my head isnt normal wow I better figure this out. then they research and pay attention to their own problems details and realize how much time they have lost, memories that most people have they do not have, wow what happened to yesterday Im so confused why cant I remember yesterday....
because the DID person now knows its not normal they question everything and pay attention to their symptoms rather than react like a child....I feel slish sloshed lets go get some rainbow candy (a roll of sweet tarts candy)
also children do get confused. i remember many times becoming aware that I was doing something else then what I last remembered doing and standing there listening to others around me to figure out what was going on. but this confusion was my normal so I did not question or try and figure out my confusion like an adult would. I reacted like the child I was, I didnt know what activity we were supposed to be doing so I either raised my hand and asked the teacher or i sat/stood there listening to others until I knew what to do.
go to a playground and watch children play and you will see that even normal non dissociative children and adults sometimes get confused. so its no surprise that confusion is part of adults trying to figure out whats going on in their life and bodies. for some people its just their normal way of being, for others they realize how much their "disorder" affects their life and need to figure things out.