Wendy,
Thank you. I hear what you are saying , but I don't feel it. I don't feel in control. There are too many parts that want control, I don't have control. They do. I can't stop them and what they do. I don't even always know what they do if someone doesn't tell me. When I was writing down the memories someone else took over and later when I read what she had wrote, I just can't believe it. How could anyone do the things she talked about? I mean, how could they?I don't even want to believe what she wrote. I mean it is just to horrible to even think about.

Nicoel