Hey, can you write it down?

A few years ago, I wrote one angry letter to my mother, it included body mutilation of her body, a couple years later, she asked me about it, I brushed it off telling her that I was just confused, I have no feelings for her left in me, and to shut her up, and to keep her out of my life, she'll be receiving a blood soaked piece of paper, I'm not even going to waste my words on it.

The way I see it, it's about the relationship with you and the target of your rage.

Some suggestions are, accept it, use it to help the helplessness, channel it out somehow. Swallow it all back and face your own fear.

Stay safe

ETA: Sober up once in a while. It's just a friendly advice. You're still trying to work it out. Spit 'em all out here if that helps you.

One last thing, get yourself a professional help if other persona feels too real. Guess I need to say that here.