I don't have any friends, only my family. All of my old friends still keep in touch on a regular basis and have continued their friendships into family life and I'm here like, alone. I see them around facebook and how they all go to each others' weddings and stuff and I feel so left out. Making friends is not easy for me, mostly due to social anxiety. Multiple therapists have suggested meet up groups to me, but I'm just too shy and anxious to do anything like that... at least right now. Sucks.

That said, bipolar and heavy self-medicating certainly had a hand in all of this, as it pretty much ruined my life, which is why I feel I never get invited to anything anymore. My old friends put up with me when I was cycling hardcore back in the day and, I assume, just don't want to deal with it anymore. I feel I will forever be known as that "crazy drunk." I'm nothing like I used to be. I'm medicated now, I rarely drink, and yet... alone.

You guys here seem to get it. That's why I come on here. Really sometimes I just need somebody to "talk to". Even if it is just over a message board.