I got a call last night from Dad. He says "Mom was looking forward to seeing you and doesn't know why you didn't come over." I told him what was said in our conversation and he said "No, she didn't say those things." He puts my mom on the phone who seemed to not know he had called me.

She says "I don't know what happened, you were coming over, but then you told me off." I said, "What do you remember of our conversation?" She told me word for word the conversation up until where it got confrontational, that was just a blank.

So now I am saying that I am really concerned about her health. Could she possibly have some pre-dimensia or something? Or is she conveniently forgetting her bad behavior? She goes off on these twenty minute rants of negativity and I can't even get a word in anyway.

When I reminded her of how she attacked her granddaughter in the airport, though, she remembered everything she called her, but she said the reason she went off was because P (her granddaughter) said terrible things to her, which is not true. It was because P took her suitcase off the plane.

I had a break through in this. If she is stressed or criticized in the least, even if it's for her own bad behavior, she goes into a viscious, abusive tiraid. Is she aware she's doing it? Can she control it? Yes. Is this a personality disorder or some other diagnosis? Or is it just immaturity?

I told her that I just can't seem to stop fighting with her all the time and I don't want to be the one to upset her. I assured her I would help her out financially, but I need to keep a distance for my own health as well. I told her how I had to start taking anti depressants again as a result of this month long fight with her.

So, this is the conclusion to this post. I have lived in this very same cycle of abuse for twenty years. Eventually death will end it. Today is a new day and I am moving on to find myself in a better state of mind.