I would expect that my birthday(s) would be something special and a big deal. For quite a few years it has not been. I get a couple of calls on my birthday, but they seem artificial. I always get a call from my good friend from college and my sister. The call from my friend is pretty good. The call I would get from my sister is usually very corny. I'd rather not talk to her. She always has to sing "Happy Birthday". It's so stupid.

Other than the calls, I would just spend a few minutes with my friend. It's OK, better than nothing. But my birthdays have never been like what kids have with their birthday parties.

There are times that ending it all can come to mind on my birthday. Lately, it seems like the older I get, the worse things are. I thought that things were supposed to get better as you get older; or entering in your "golden years".