Well, we have split up. It basically ended with her saying she needed time and left me. I've accused her of having someone else (evidence is high but not concrete). She has denied this and now we've ended on very bad blood. I don't think there is a chance we will ever get back together (mainly because i flipped out and told her i would never have her back anyway)

I'm absolutely heart broken, hurt, lost, lonely, devastated.

I feel like I will never find love again or someone as good as my now ex. All the usual post break-up feelings I guess but it still feels so real, raw, painful.

I suppose now i work on fixing myself and moving forward, as hard as that is and as bleak as it looks. Thanks for the support