Just wanted to add, the thing that hurts the most is i think that if i wasnt so insecure, clingy, needy, dependant, we could have been perfect together. I bring the blame on myself and feel that my problems have ended this. Its hard to take her off the pedestal by thinking about the negatives in the relationship because i feel like my state of mind and my actions caused all this. If only I wasnt the way i am, it could have been the best thing in my life