I have great admiration for anyone who contributes positively to this forum, whether it's through supportive words, honest sharing, or simply through good intentions, because all of these things can be helpful in enriching members of this community.

Sometimes a post I've made will not get as much or as immediate a response as I might have thought it would based on the value I've perceived it could have for others, but I always remind myself that my having posted it creates a beacon for others in the future, so that the amount of response I get in the present is only the tip of what might be a much greater iceberg than I could ever know. Just the other day someone responded to a thread I'd started more than a year ago, saying that it got them out of a negative thought pattern, and this did make me very happy to see, however, I have also resigned myself to getting satisfaction out of merely meeting the challenge of maintaining appropriate faith in my own contribution and how it may be positively received by others without my knowing.

It's like that old adage about planting a young seedling taking satisfaction in knowing that it will grow into a proud beauty for others to enjoy in the future. I try to ensure I plant good and decent trees, happy in the knowledge that others may find peace in shade they provide.

But going back to the most excellent primary topic that Skeezyks has shared here: Even if I have to leave the orchard for a little while (I've taken breaks from PC), I know there's no reason for me to throw away a key. I once burned a set of diaries of mine, ones that I'd lengthily and faithfully filled out during my most formative years, at a time when it hurt to realize how innocent I was at the time, what easy prey I was then for some terrible wolves. But I wish I had thought then to just put them away in a special box somewhere, because at this point I'm sure they would be the source of some valuable revelations, or at least for a more complete sense of connection with myself. In any event.. these days I try to always at least leave a back door open. Lest some action I've taken in the heat of passion once again leaves me without access to elements of continuity where my spiritual life is concerned.