I feel half frustrated, half scared, and I really don't like it.

Work last night was awful. It lasted forever, we didn't finish what needed to be done at the end of the night, and my boss was in a bad mood the whole time. I don't know what to make of my boss. I kind of like him as a person, but I kind of hate him as a boss. All that is the frustrating part.

The part that is making me afraid is because of what has been going on where I live. I live down the street from where the planned parenthood shooting took place last week. And if that wasn't bad enough, two hospitals near me were put on lockdown for unknown reasons this afternoon. My mom works at one of those hospitals, but she works nights so at least I know she isn't there right now. I didn't know anyone who was effected by the shooting, but it scares me that it happened so close to my home. I feel like I'm scared to even go outside. My fiance is gone right now getting a hair cut, and I'm on edge thinking something is going to happen to him and that he won't come back.

I guess I'm lucky that all this stuff happening around here hasn't directly effected me, but it's still really scary. I feel like I have no control over anything, and I hate that feeling. I don't know how to make myself feel better. I want to move already and get away from here, but I have to wait until May for that. I just don't know what to do...