I'm once again trying dating. I've met someone a few weeks ago. I't's not that he isn't attractive, but I'm not thinking any wow or anything there. I saw him twice this past weekend, he drives one hour to get here and then another to go home. So Sunday, he's thinking of coming by but he say's its his day to clean. Honestly that was fine with me, and I just said "and it's a lot of driving"..

What is making me feel weird is he is already saying he really really likes me. Then, when he left Sat., he said he'll call me this week. He works long hours during the week. Then he calls this morning and said "I want to come see you", in an impatient way. I want to spend time with you. I had a reason to say no, I had something to do. Then, he sends an email, maybe tomorrow I can see you, I don't mind driving and spending an hour with you before work. I already told him I want to take it slow and he said he understands that. I think meeting once a week would be plenty. He also asked if he should take his profile down on the net. I don't know, it's like he's getting attached and he hasn't got much to base this on.

I've been on the other side of this. I've fallen really easily for people all my life. I think I've finally become whole in myself, and now I feel uneasy having someone attach themselves and push a relationship at me.

I really don't have enough girlfriends to talk about things with, so I guess I needed a place to type out my thoughts. I think I know the answer to what I should do. Just keep reminding him that I want to take this slowly. I've really almost never been in a position where I rejected anyone. He seems to be a very tender heart, and I guess I just don't want to keep going at a fast pace and then end up hurting him if I don't really have feelings for him. He is a recent widow, so I'm really wondering whether I should even take him up on these offers for meeting during the week. How does he expect me to know what I want when we don't know much about each other. Actually I do know a fair bit, we did talk a lot.

I also don't understand why I'm still hung up on someone I met a year ago. He has shown in so many ways that he's a conceited jerk who doesn't really give a crap for anyone but himself.

I never did have good boyfriends or husband. I must be attracted to the wrong men for a reason. Why do people attract abusers and jerks? (I have no feeling that this guy is one at all, in fact, he seems ideal). If someone can answer that, it would help. Thanks.