So I made it to my apt.There is always lots to talk about being almost a month between visits.
I told him about self destructive stuff,the binge drinking the blades.I also told him about the consistent intrusive sh thoughts.He chalked it up to stress......which I know is my biggest trigger.....hes right.
He didnt seemed too concerned about the depression,he knew I was seeing pdoc tomorrow.
He seemed concerned how I would handle the return to work(as ive been on holidays now 6 weeks).He made sure to make a follow up apt shortly after school resumes.
We also had a big discussion about therapy.....distance and taking time off is a big factor playing in my continuance.
T seemed to understand my delima but for now I will continue to see him....I think hes thinking about other options for me as it seems quitting therapy all together was NOT an option in his opinion.
In the meantime Im ok.....happy no.....but ok.
The talk with T definatly helped put things into a better perspective....I also talked to my husband about stuff.....so he knows we need to keep things pretty balanced at home....
So off to pdoc tomorrow....I guess Ill tell him the same.Getting sick of the weekly bloodwork for lithium levels.Went this am....nothing like a needle in your arm before your first cup of coffee eh?
Im pretty sure my levels from last week will be totally off as the vodka and lithium just didnt stay down!!
Ooooh the crap I get myself into...
Anyways... thanks for the support all!
I'll be around....reading your posts......be good....and Ill try too!