Fyi - as ive been there, done that - the receptionist is not your friend. She works for the university, esp for the program chair.

What were you thinking, when she called you to come meet with her "right this minute", that you would think it was okay to tell her to wait an hour? You were just there in the office a minute ago. She saw you. I understand about you feeling tearful and emotional, but do you see how self-centered that made you look? You had no consideration for her schedule for the rest of the day. Its not like you were bartering the price of a car or a cantelope and she was looking for you to make a counteroffer. I think she referred you for discipline because it appeared you were refusing to come in. You had no excuse not to come in.

You keep saying now you will take xanax to get thru it, instead of responding to anyone here. I would like to see you figure out why you refused to meet when called. I would give a million bucks to have the guts to do that. "I cant right now, how about in an hour?" Or was it painful to do it? Were you just too scared to go? You must have known she only had "now" available; there would be no "later".

Obviously this means something to me personally; not sure what yet, my mother scaring me played out at my work. Anyway, Thanks for sharing.