I haven't had friends outside of the internet in many years. I have no idea how to talk to people or interact normally anymore, consistently. People only like the hypo me. Not the depressed me. I can't really blame them, but I often become extremely lonely when my boyfriend is working, which is often. I start thinking about the days before I became truly symptomatic (anxiety included) and miss them terribly. I'm not physically in contact with my family anymore either, and our communication is very brief over the phone. I'm not too upset about that because they've never been reliable anyway. My boyfriend is the only reliable person I have, physically.