I have a similar set of conditions as you, but less intense. I'm not on any medications. I don't even fully meet the criteria for BPD - and I know that I am in no way shape or form, fit to be a therapist. I'm barely fit to be posting on this forum most of the time.

Maybe you will be one day be ready to be a therapist, when your medications are stable and you no longer meet the BPD criteria. But frankly, I think trying to be a practicing therapist in two years while actively BPD is just... put it this way, I don't think the decision to take your money and allow you into the course was ethical.

You're obviously very smart and eloquent. There are places you can use those academic skills etc. There are a million different careers out there where passion and brilliance and sheer intellectual prowess will take you a very long way. There are places where being scrappy and relentless will work for you.

But the position of a professional therapist does not fit any of those criteria.

I don't think you're in any shape to be a therapist, and frankly, I don't think they're going to let you be one in your current state either.

If this is really your dream, you need to take several steps back and look at what you need to do to get yourself recovered from the disorder.