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Originally Posted by InRealLife45
Technically I don't meet criteria anymore, but I still view myself as having it. Generally speaking, I don't take medications outside of xanax (very very very rarely) and vyvanse to increase my focus- On other meds like mood stabilizers and anti psychotics and the like, I find myself becoming more emotionally reactive and out of control under the influence of that medication than I would be off of medication.
I only took it the three weeks I was in the DBT program, it caused problems academically so I stopped it.
I've been very honest with the two heads of my program about my BPD and the things I am struggling with, and tried to drop out last semester and they encouraged me to stay.
I recognize my obstacles and have repeated them to admin more than once, and they think (or maybe thought past tense) that I'd be able to do it in the time I have left.
Regardless if I wind up practicing as a therapist in the next 24 months, I'd still like to get my degree. There are other things I can do with it that can get me off of disability.
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I should have also added in my last post, I think you're incredibly brave to be doing what you're doing with the diagnosis you had and maybe don't have so much anymore. Just dealing with BPD kinds of states is hard - and doing it while under scrutiny is even harder. There's a particularly grueling nature to anything academic, not because of the work, because of the culture. It rewards emotionlessness. It's like a snake pit where all the snakes are square.
I hope you do get your degree, and that you can find a position afterward that works with your strengths. Hopefully you can stay relaxed during your disciplinary interlude and get through this.