im so sorry abt your situation. i know a lot f those feelings he used a lot of the same tactics. but a lot of the big details of what he did are lost to amnesia. i barely remember a thing about 2009 beyond stray chunks. dont think there will ever be a way to report him with those. it happened so many years ago and hes such a manipulative person hed just find a way to make me look like a vindictive ***** ex making things up to get back at him for ??????something??????? and everyone will eat it up. people are cruel. theyll reach and reach for anything that proves his innocence. i remember adults telling me i was the one being abusive putting him through so much pain when i broke up with him. his dad calling and yelling at me when his son was done yelling at me. i dont know how long that went on but at one point it was nightly and it would go on for hours.

but. i know i cant do anything for the kid. its hardly my business beyond me knowing what kind of person his dad is. we were still speaking when his son was an infant and he seemed loving enough. he always wanted a child, his biggest fear was that he would die before he had kids. so maybe that softened him a little. but hes not human. maybe he was once but he was altered somewhere and the thing occupying his body is not a human soul. what you said about just keeping him in good thoughts is making me tear up for ssome reason. i was sad when i heard that the baby i heard gurgling in the background for months was his son and i was vaguely jealous when he told me abt handling the mother at the ER (i was still in love with him and hadnt remembered what he did or at least hadnt registered the things i did remember as Not Normal Couple Things). but i never, ever thought badly of the kid. even when i wished him the worst i would never want his son to suffer. idk. im allowed to worry