Every time I hear that song I cried because I interpreted in many horrible things that happened in my life. I cry on the self reflection of where I'm at not what I feel about myself.

Yes those words speak to me, but it's more relevant the fact I don't make any exceptions for any girl. I never gotten attached or felt I truly wanted them. I truly wished I did, I never really liked people, and I don't like lying to someone's face because I want to hook up. I saw someone today I met at my work a customer I gave out my number, because I want to make an exception hopefully create something out of nothing. I do want a friend first before a relationship, but we live in a world we never have the time and the people only want a certain person and people always have asked me why it hasn't happened to me. It's simply the opposite in the story of the music video's perspective in Haley's song about her previous love life.

Instead of being surrounded by choices, I'm surrounded always of a lack of choice period. There is no one available and even when I try so hard to just ignore and avoid some girls like play games all do. It's like instead of me wanting someone to come in, I am like afraid the next person is just like everyone else. I'm not going to ask someone out on a date. I gave out my number stating I want a new friend it worked a couple times before, but even if the girl wants a relationship, just don't feel disappointed that I told you no, because I like you not because I don't want you.

It's ****ed up we live in this guy kiss girls *** world where my philosophy gets me no where but misery whether I choose to be obnoxious and peserverent or just lucky to have good all around looks. I do have above average looks, but I don't have much of my personality I like to show. I act like a jerk, but I'm sarcastic all the time. I never consider some people I don't like their feelings, but people I do. I'll listen, but even if I don't like them I treat them different not they are lesser than me, but in a way that's shows I care what they feel if they are sad I will listen if they want my opinion, but if we have nothing to talk about I avoid them.

I do this, because I never met anyone who actually is anything I like. Not even a small bit. I get shallow looks or shallow personality. No depth no character, and when I do have friends. They just are a ****ing sham friends who eventually leave me. I never believed in love, my granpda made me believed it was real before once, my parents made me hate it and my friends make me hate myself the fact they are either ungrateful at times, or they like to use their relationship to **** me over as a friend.

You know **** love. It's not real as in today. I never believed it, and that video spoke to me that song has since I was little.

I'm very capable of being romantic and loving and compassionate, I only show it to a fortunate few. I know it's not the best strategy, but no one wants to come up to me and really be concerned about who I really am. Most girls piss off all the time. If you believe most girls don't have an agenda you're born in an old fashioned life with no exposure to the modern world or you never seen anything outside the fact you found what you wanted and not noticed all the people you could of liked better and knocked down because you were so dead certain on what you want like I did for my own agenda. I want a true friendship and relationship, my goal maybe similar or different from yours but my journey isn't your journey it isn't bad for me to have open or closed relationships. I am versatile I like more than one piece of the pie I don't just swing for girls, but guys too. Guys are easier because they open up easier than women, but are more out going and better than some women at showing affection.

I've learned for years first hand, all the negative traits of women, I've rarely seen the good, because I don't know. I wasn't that blessed I guess. I do have lots of female friends mind you that really care about me and I really pay attention and care about them, but even if they are someone I'm sexually attracted to or not. I won't hit on them, I value my friendship over wanting something simple. In the end like all my friendships they leave faster than my guy friendships.

Usually it's 50 50 about the same, but it's like my guy friends last longer than my female ones.

You think I would even be considered an option, no I don't believe it even when I will make myself available and I have it's no reason for me to be mad if it doesn't happen or not. I am not afraid of dying alone, I'm already alone and lonely and hurting all the time. I don't like showing it, I don't like sharing it and I don't like saying I love you to anyone. The most powerful scene that's hit me dead on, where Hayley Williams is hit on by all these men and she's more and more frowning to depressed and then to hopeless expressions disappointed how ****** people are.
Because that's how I feel, I don't have women talk to me all the time wanting whatever. I don't care what they want as long as they are honest. I can give a straight answer, but I am like her, tired of just putting effort and nothing works and you know how I'm doing it all wrong I don't understand what to do. I stopped caring, because no one really gets me. I have a manager who is crushing on me, but isn't like she is, she's instead being more like a best friend than crushing not really friendzoning me I maintained my distance before we even spoke. The fact she and I work she isn't the prettiest and I'm not going to say that to her face, because she is very self conscious and yeah who cares I love her as a friend. I will make a point I don't love love people anyone not people either easily destroy it as they can earn it. I can stop liking you very quickly shut down and never want to speak to you again as fast as I thought you were so amazing.

It's that she really cares about what I feel, and it's fine for the moment it's good enough. In the end, I'll still be where I'm at hating myself for my loneliness and I'm not lacking confidence. I'm lacking the understanding what to do anymore. I don't try I do try both don't work, both aren't getting me results thinking about getting results is stupid in the end **** it relationships are stupid.

they are only given not earned. If you are unlucky like me sucks... o well..

Beggers can't be choosers.

I picked the next best thing for me, be better be the best and shut down anyone I don't care who it was shut them down cut them up and just tear their advances boy girl whoever apart. If they want something they have to get through my impossible barrier and it's put alot of incentive to not go for me. I did that, because I'm hurt, I'm hurt.

You know when I dated people and said I love you, a girl just hits me and tells me to be quiet or that my affection is embarrassing it's absolutely disgusting I put up with that person. Most experiences I had in love really aren't optimistic and that it's not going to get better and I'm not a believer.

The person I really will say I love you will be an only exception who will make me a believer that's why that song is exactly me.