Yup. They pretty much said it all... I am also like this a lot too, insome ways. I don't really dwell on other ppls opinions... except for when they impede on my own way of living. For me this became my way of thinking very early on growing up in environment where my own opinions were never validated or even considered. At home, I was ignored, always wrong or not good enough. At school i was mad fun of at for speaking up right or wrong.... so from a very young age, I isolated and stayed quiet and outta sight mostly just to not be picked on I think. I pretty much grew up believing automatically that no one would like me or care about me so I put up a wall. But some part of me never stopped yearning to feel connected. Somewhere along the way, I flipped to trying ridiculously to fit in anywgere.... complete fail. I still hold no close relationships except my husband. But the truth is I am very insecure and have become frozen in life as having no use or purpose.. "the left over piece that don't fit."
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"The woods are lovely, dark, and deep
But I have promises to keep
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep"
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