You guys have been great inspiration for me. You all are right. Your pain is your pain. You're the one who has to live with it day after day. It's hard to stay positive. I've also been having a hard time talking about it with " normals" who think your just complaining too much. Personally the thing that broke my heart in two was when my wife accused me of faking it. She can't see my pain ,( failed back syndrome and major depression ) , so she doesn't understand. She's not the only one I get funny looks from. I'm so pissed. This thing has taken away everything from me. My job , my marriage , my self esteem etc.....
Sometimes I feel like ripping my heart out of my chest and showing it to them saying , " is this painful enough to see " . I'm just being dramatic but the anger that I also have to deal with is pretty bad. Thank you all for being here.