i've had several relationships since college, im almost 55 yrs old now. i ended up leaving my college sweetheart because he got pshysically and emotionally abusive. from then on i had several ex's i was just playing the feild. then i met my sons father who i had to leave too because he was emotionally abusive. i've been married for 20 years now with a great guy. i told you all this not to discourage you but to let you know you havechoices too. i'll pray and good luck