Okay, a few things now that my mind is winding down.

I supposedly tested as gifted as a child, but I never acted gifted. I had a psychologist suggest once that this was due to an attention disorder that went undiagnosed, but I don't know about that. There weren't any gifted programs where I lived, though I did get accepted to a magnet school when I was about to start high school (my mom and I decided against it because the commute would have been ridiculous). Yet for all this I did awful on the SAT, especially math.

Next, this trend of thinking I did well and I actually didn't has been going on for a while. I think I know what I'm doing but it turns out wrong. I don't know what to do there.

This mini test consisted of some number sequences, a few matrices, and some analogies and word problems. I have no idea which I got right.

I guess I look at all of this as signs of ability, what I can and can't do. I lack passion or even interest, so I figure I might have to rely on raw ability. And yeah, I have a lifelong fixation on intelligence as value. And a kind of intellectual FOMO. I admit I harbor fantasies of intellectual success, and am a bit afraid to pursue them if there's any good chance of failure...

A few times now I've had people say I must be smart because of how I communicate. Really? It seems to me that talking/writing one's thoughts is easy, it's the content of those thoughts that determines intelligence....