yesterday, I made poor choices. I chose to drink when I got home from work. (used my last bit of money to buy beer). Then I almost mixed Xanex with the alcohol. Instead I went to a nurse forum on Facebook and asked for prayers for thoughts of self harm. I was overwhelmed by their response. However, they contacted my kids, and the sheriff's dept. I almost feel bad for scaring everyone, but I myself was frightened. However in the light of day, I find myself questioning if it was just typical Borderline behavior. Screaming for attention, when asking would do. I just don't know. Hopefully, haven't messed things up completely with my family and friends.