HMMMM, wish your t would have called. Its good to have this relationship with her. Is there anyone at all you can get a hold of that could help you in anyway while she is gone?? I am sure you have racked your brain already, its just the urgency we hear from you to me is a cry for help.

May I ask, are you feeling safe, within yourself?? With the alcohol concerns, I do feel that you may need more of a safer place to be in. I don't want to say that in a negative way, and don't wish to offend you at all. I can appreciate where you are at with the alcohol but its going to make it so much worse. And we know you realize this.

I am not trying to come across at lecturing, believe me when I say this is not my intention. I have struggled with alcohol in the past and understand the reasons why. But I am worried about both your emotional health as well as the physical.

Its good to see you posting here, I so want you to see how important you are. By talking with your t and here, its a sign that you want to work through this. Thats great.

Please Nicole (I love that name), if you are not safe or feel that a little extra help could be useful, then go where you may need to. Its not a negative thing at all. With your t gone, please consider that there are others that will assist you until she gets back.

Okay, I sound like my t; lolol. No really, this is just what I think. I have said before, take what you need, and leave the rest. I do like the part about; being good to Nicole for even a half and hour. One step at a time.

We are here for you my dear,

Justy