Hello xEquinoxX: I'm sorry you are experiencing this difficulty. Why am I not surprised that the counselors at your school are not taking you seriously? When I was just starting high school, many years ago now, my guidance counselor told me I was going to be a bum because I couldn't tell her what I wanted to do when I grew up! Being transgender can be very confusing. Nothing you wrote is at all unusual. I would just like to suggest that, if possible, you find an therapist who is experienced in working with individuals who have gender identity concerns. Such a person can help you to sort through the confusion you are quite naturally feeling. I wish you well...