About a week ago I noticed I was starting to take a turn mood wise. I told my therapist that I was worried about handling the holiday. We usually meet on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Since Thanksgiving was Thursday, she said that she would call me either Thursday morning to touch base, or we could IM Thursday night. Thursday came and just as I suspected, I wasn't dealing well at all. I waited all day, but never heard from her.

I wasn't too upset, because it was a holiday and I understand. However I had hoped that we would touch base Friday, because I was really losing touch. Saturday morning I saw she was online, so I tried to chat. She denied it. So I sent her an email telling her that I felt like I may be slipping into a place that I didn't want to go. A few hours later she wrote: "I gave you great tools. You need to use them." My feelings were hurt, but I wrote back telling her that I think I want to try meds (she had wanted me to be med free) because I always come back to this feeling, and it always leads to a hospital trip. She wrote back: "I think you do just fine until someone bursts your bubble." I didn't even know what to say, so I just wrote out how I had been feeling like I'm starting to lose touch with reality. She hasn't responded.

This morning I emailed her asking if we can chat tonight for 15 minutes or so because I really needed to talk. I marked it as urgent. She has been online for the past three hours, and I haven't gotten any response. Am I being too impatient?

The past few weeks she has been late to sessions, or forgetting sessions completely. If something is going on in her life I understand, but I don't think this is fair to me. I am trying to give her the benefit of the doubt because up until this mood shift I have been doing great. I just feel like when I really needed her she was't there. Am I overreacting?