Your lucky to have a tdoc that is willing to talk to you outside of the office. However when she's not keeping up her end of the bargain that's a problem. And it was a bit unprofessional of her to say "you're fine until someone pops your bubble". I would find a new tdoc after this ordeal. And if you believe you can improve with meds, don't let anyone tell you different. I'm going to assume you have BP? I believe meds are a must for someone with unstable bipolar. She's not there for you when she said she would be, and she is hindering your chances of getting stable. I would find a pdoc and a new t asap.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 300mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN