Could use some support here gang. Been feeling down in the dumps about my body image and job and stuff.

I got a new job and it's not challenging at all. I have a masters degree and working on my Ph.D. currently so I need a challenge and I need to feel like I'm making a difference. I just go to work and fill my time with going on the Internet and getting some school work done. It's terribly boring. I know some people would die for that type of job, but I feel like I have no use in life.

Then I come home and just exist. I used to come home and do homework but now that I get that done during the day, there isnt much else to do. I have my dog and live with my boyfriend, but he's a homebody too.

Not to mention he's having a hard time with work, he currently has a temp job but it's not gaurenteed forever. His boss said he's trying to hire him permanently but who knows. He travels an hour to and from work. He's always tight on cash and it puts pressure on me. Idk.

And I've never felt this bad about how I look. I know it's distorted but still. I just hate myself so much. Isn't that what they say depressing is? Hatred turned inward? It's kind of the perfect storm....