I am an alcoholic who has been in recovery for many years. It can be very difficult to (a) come to grips with the idea that alcoholic is not our friend. It starts out being that way, but in the end, in makes the pain worse. It is indeed a depressant. (b) give it up in the midst of another crisis. Given that your T is out of town for the next 2 weeks, it may be a good time to explore AA and avail yourself of the love and comfort in those rooms.

You can get telephone numbers and start to build relationships with other suffering alcohol abusers, and this may help you through the next few weeks while your T is gone.

Go to more than one meeting. Meetings has personalities, like people, and that personality may even be different from meeting to meeting, depending on who's there. For the hour you are at the meeting, you will be safe from alcohol, even if you drink later.

Just a thought.