The friend I had infatuation about is now dating after he rejected me. I am trying to be positive he is still sort of in my life, but we live in the same region so I could see them anywhere. I used to seek resort at certain quiet places, and obviously those are where lovers tend to go. I know it is unreasonable, but I pleaded if he could avoid being at certain places I have to be. He said I had no right to tell him what to do and told me I am overacting. My heart brokenness have to be covered in shame. Everything I have done is wrong.
I am being unreasonable. But I have had this intense feelings towards him for two years and it takes time to heal. I thought we are very important to each other and he would care to make me feel less hurt. I feel he becomes a different person after he started dating and is cruel to other friends, not just me. Maybe I am just a bad influence and worth abandoning.
Of course, a romantic interest is important, and sometimes more important than a long-time friend. But how could I stop my heartbroken feelings when I could risk seeing the stimulus of him anywhere. There is no place that feels safe, and I have few other friends to talk to.
Please don't judge me...I need time...