I hope you get that too. I'm going to be going in about Jan 1 to go off Seroquel and on Clozaril so definitely (unless a miracle happens in the next few weeks) won't be a hospital-free year for me. But only one in 2015 and it as 2 1/2 years until that. The one 2 1/2 years ago was my long, over Christmas stay. I went in about a week before but somehow they didn't realize how suicidal I was. I finally wrote a note to the nurse when they were about to send me home and suddenly was on line-of-sight and all kinds of unpleasantness for 24 hours until I saw the pdoc. And then I was settled in for a long stay through Christmas. It was boring and weird to be there at Christmas because it is so the opposite of Christmas. They made it as nice as they could, even gave us gifts, but it was just sad. It saved my life and I'm glad I was there but hope to never repeat that.
One of the several reasons I asked to wait out another month on the clozaril was that I don't want to be IP for Christmas again, especially this year which will be the first of having 3 Christmases for my 6 person family thanks to my brother's actions and probation. I couldn't stand having my mom sitting alone Christmas eve or dealing with Christmas in a restaurant with my brother by herself.
I am not looking forward to the about 2 weeks I'll be in there in January. I'll probably turn 40 there and the dr who has been my hospital dr every time I've ever been in left a month ago so I'll have someone different. The other dr is excellent and I'll miss him. But at least I'll finally get a new treatment that hopefully will help.
And after that hopefully no more hospitalizations for a long time since I have no idea how I'll pay the medical bills I'll have accumulated from the 2 IP stays in 6 months.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily
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