I replied to your first post about this and said to leave him alone and give him space since you've made threats at him when he put down your attempts. You're still chasing after him and now you say it's been 2 years that he's been telling you "no"? I mean this with the best of wishes, it's time you seek therapy. It's clearly becoming obsession to you and you're not even comfortable going out in public in fear you'll see him and his new gf. You're letting your life revolve around someone who told you no from the start. Get help.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 300mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN