That's the way you feel right now, and it's understandable. But keep in mind that last night you weren't feeling that way, and you needed the help. You weren't being stupid, and I feel angry at... the world, for making you feel that way.

And we humans also have a protective tendency to not remember horrible pain accurately. When I need reminding of this, I try to think back to times when I was in great physical pain. I usually can't remember the actual pain at all, just the memories of events surrounding it. It's the same, to a large extent, with emotional pain. It's just that, while you can remember, say, seeing a huge gash in your leg, there aren't as many good ways to verify how much emotional pain you were in. So please, please, give yourself a break on this.

About having the authorities called on oneself, I see two possibilities for why people would rather err on the side of caution. One is that they have a real human concern for you, and would rather call in folks and be wrong than not call them and have you hurt yourself. The other possibility is that they just want to cover their butts legally, and I have less sympathy for that. From talking to psychiatrists I know that butt covering is very often the main concern, and my sympathy for that has its limits. (I think it's safe to assume that the online group wasn't in this second category.)

In my case, when the police came, they asked if I had been drinking. I told them the truth, that I had at most a half ounce of vodka. They told me that, legally, they were obliged to take me to the emergency room. Which made sense to me in my emotional state, but was complete nonsense. To them I was just a problem that they wanted out of their lives.