You're experiencing alcohol withdrawal which is the most dangerous of withdrawals. Since you don't have insurance, I would check into the ER and get admitted for rapid detox. That's what I had to do 6 months ago and I havnt drank since. They gave me meds and I slept the whole time. You have nothing else and nowhere else to go at this point so you mine as well. And anyone will tell you to stay away from your bf and cousin. Those aren't real relationships. They're codependent ones and they aren't there to help you that's for sure.

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Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 300mgs
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