Ahh the old days. I've showed up to therapy drunk before. She refused to let me leave before I sobered up. Embarrassing. Rock bottom. You're turning to any substance to get by and that's not good. You really need to seek help. The inhalants scare me more than the drinking. Have you ever seen someone strung out on that stuff? Watch a few episodes of cops. These people can't even stand straight or remember their own name. Sitting behind a dumpster passing a can between them, sitting in their own filth. Unable to recall their home address. Sorry but I thought of that one cops episode when I started reading this. Drinking will do the same eventually. I think getting kicked out of tdocs should be a wake up call that you need professional help here.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 300mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN