I would like to report that it seems for every change of thought, feeling, emotion, idea,....there is an other behind it.

To answer a question from out there, this is why we delete posts a lot. We are under internal censorship I suppose, and if an other presents a differing opinion, the post is changed or deleted. At times it's like "OMG, who wrote that?". This is why most of my entries have "Last edited by AlwaysChanging2...." (See below :P).

I can't help to feel totally exhausted to the very last period. We collaborate or switch several times in a sentence as we wrangle over how to word it the way we it should to best express a thought or an idea. Like, this sentence has been edited several more times already and add-ons have been added and I've already have written several more paragraphs...pressed save...

I've been asked, "well isn't that what normal people do?"...and my reply is "yes it is, but I always feel like a different person when I do so", or another voice chimes in and makes the changes. It takes an hour to write a simple post because everyone has their own opinion. Picture everyone jumping in gang style over talking each other instead of in a civilized manner taking turns. Only on intense technical and important stuff do we behave that civilized way.

I feel like this is very extreme, we get "lost" in our day and things don't get done. Like right now, we were suppose to be gone job hunting and here I sit on here undressed doing my thing (been up since 7:30)...ooops. Yesterday a teen watched "You Tube" for 12 hours instead of us doing.

Can we make others do? No. When one presents, it's like they lock in and take over fully immersed. I can hear the head chatter but some can't. You got to literally tear them off there or wait till they let their guard down. Picture a teenager with their headphones on....yeah.

I feel like a broken person. If anyone knew what goes on upstair....

Anyways....shower then out that door.