My husband is out of a job as they are closing his shop at the end of the month. He is our only source of income and we are already poor. I have had bad day after bad day and sometimes So, I just suffer. As usual, I just suffer. I want so badly to try this new med, praying it will be some miracle but apparently my pdoc isn't quite as eager. I just had my blood drawn again yesterday...we'll see if it is futile. I already tried calling his office and they aren't answering. To make things worse, my family, my mom and husband especially, just don't understand. They don't get the logic in the impossibility of "doing things" making me "better ." I'd rather not try anymore.