There are a lot of normal teenagers that enjoy a couple relationship WITHOUT Sex, WITHOUT Drugs, & without having to do things they will look back & regret. Why in the world would you want a negative life rather than a normal positive teenager life. Setting your own values to live by are the most important thing & in setting those boundaries, that is when you attract like people who enjoy the same boundaries & values.....those are the people you would want to have a normal teenage life with.

It's hard to hear that what you are going through is normal for your age.....it is frustrating, makes one angry.....especially when the mind is wanting to be through all this junk that it takes to grow up. Unfortunately, life is like climbing stairs...it takes one step at a time & when we try to skip some, we usually trip ourselves & land on our ???????.

I have lived through things I haven't wanted to deal with....I have horrible memories that haunt me. That to is just part of living....we all (no matter what age) have to deal with things like that. Time passes & so do the things we are dealing with at the time....on to other things we have to deal with in the future....some may even be worse....but some may be so much better that we are glad we made it through what we went through. The things we go through are also important because they give us the groundwork (foundation) to build the rest of our lives on. What you are going through is a very positive part of life & even though you wish it were more exciting....more things for you to regret later on......it is what it is for you to learn from & help you figure out yourself with.

Hope this makes some sense.....only because even at my age, some of these things are things I have thought in the recent past of my life too.
You aren't alone,
Debbie