My experience is similar to yours in that it both began severely and was diagnosed early. I have had VERY different experiences with pdocs and hospitalizations though and I'm sorry that you experienced such cruelty from someone who was supposed to help you. I had many years of stability but since a psychotic break I have been even more unstable than I was as a teen (which says much about the course and severity of my illness). I keep waiting for that long remission and I wish I had hope that it will reoccur. I cannot speak to your particular illness but I can tell you that there are many who have either "figured it out" or drastically improved with medications. At 32, that hasn't happened for me. I hope it does for you.