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Old Dec 02, 2015, 02:49 PM
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Okay, I'm going to try to keep this short and to the point, but that may not happen.

Last night, I finally got things moving with the guy that I have been interested in for a while. By the time I went home around 4 A.M., we had spent almost five hours alternating between kissing (I think it was French kissing- open-mouth, biting lips, et cetera) and general cuddling-type stuff and watching YouTube videos, talking, and other non-physical things.

It is probably important to mention that this was my first time EVER kissing anyone or having any kind of skin-on-skin contact besides hugging friends and family.

Ever since I went home this morning (again, around 4 A.M.), I have been having what I can only describe as tactile hallucinations. Any time that I am not immediately distracted by a consuming task or conversation, I can feel his lips on mine just like they were before, I can feel his stubble on my cheeks, and I feel the pressure from his hands on my waist, back, stomach, et cetera. It is so intense that honestly if I closed my eyes, I would not know that he was not here touching me in this instant.

I'm really starting to get worried about this. I know that I am very tactiley sensitive- when teachers or family would touch my shoulder or hand for any reason, I could always continue to feel the sensation until I brushed it off with my hand or a cloth. But it has been over 10 hours since the experience ended and I am still feeling these sensations.

Not sure if this is salient information, but right now the only medications that I am taking is 20 mg of buspirone at night, to help me sleep (it is something my doctor wanted to try, and it is not working- I have to take cough syrup in order to sleep at all). Also, given that I was with this guy for the majority of last night, I have not slept in 35 hours. Things always get worse when I don't sleep, but I have NEVER hallucinated before.

Can someone please, please tell me how to make these go away? Feeling the physical touch was difficult enough when it was actually happening, but now it is driving me to distraction when I am trying to focus on studying for final exams.