Good luck with the family thing. I don't have a clue to its nature of course, but whatever it is, at least there's one possibly helpful aspect... You know ahead of time. Better than being blindsided (yeah?). It gives you time to prepare yourself mentally and work on practicing your coping skills.

Numb sucks. I, too, know it well. For me, it's Brain's way of trying to cope with overwhelm. It's the only way I can manage to function day to day. (I know you've gone through a lot, fine tuning on the med front, so I'll skip that common answer). So do you think overwhelm might be a factor?