I can not help but wonder if many of you have this same feeling.....

Life sucks and it will never be better.

Truth be told, I have a lot of things to be thankful for; but I can not seem to appreciate them. I live in blaaaaaah all the time. I am just waiting for something crappy to happen to be the thing that pushes me over the edge.

WHY can I not find a purpose to live. And I use the term live as in to live life actively. I exists, I do not live. I work, I go home, I repeat. There is no life in this life.

I WANT to die, but I know how much it would hurt my youngest daughter. My wife too (but I think she would get over it); I fear my daughter would be truly messed up.

Arg. Life sucks. Much like my mother used to say - "I wish I had never been born".

:/