I'm not sure if she apologize. She said that she should be on time, but that's not always possible. I can't remember if she also said sorry.
She said she can sort of understand my train of thoughts; her being late makes me think I'm less important than her other clients. But then she said if I would look at it rational then I would see that it doesn't mean that I'm less than other clients, rationally I know that I'm just as important as other clients and that she doesn't think I'm less.
But that's just it. I don't know that. T's can like some clients more than others. I've seen it in my previous therapy and I've read articles from other T's.
Usually she's a very good T and she understands me. But about this... She knows I'm worried than I'm less than other clients. She knows my experiences in previous therapy and what has happen.
I also don't really know what to do. How I can feel better about this. But thank you for your reaction. I was afraid that I was over-reacting. I'm now even more scared that T doesn't really like me. She has done things that would show she at least still want to see me, but that was months ago. Things can change. And I'm afraid it has.
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