It was my first encounter of that nature, and while it was enjoyable in one sense it was also very uncomfortable and pushed a lot of my boundaries. I've never been good with people touching me unless I am very, very relaxed, but I was making an effort to be close with this guy so I tried to ignore the wrongness of the sensations and focus on what little things did feel nice.

I would probably have been fine by now without this, but the constant sensation of being touched is making me focus more on the unpleasantness of it rather than any pleasant parts.

I will get out from work in a couple of hours, and see if I have any Trazodone left. I really hope that once I sleep, this will all go away and I can get back to a functioning state.