So, I told my t yesterday that I was interested in the pdoc in her office and that my mom had offered to pay the $225 evaluation fee. She acted weird about it in my opinion and it made me feel embarrassed. It was probably in my head but I have obsessed about it none the less. I think it is just because there is so much going on. I wrote this to paraphrase the message I wanted to leave her:

There is no need to return my call as I realize this is ridiculous! However, if I don't get it out I will continue to obsess about it as I feel embarrassed. The only reason I mentioned the possibility of switching doctors is I feel like mine has dropped the ball recently. I do like him but I don't necessarily depend on him. Anyway, just afraid I sounded like an idiot and wanted to clarify.

Is this completely ridiculous? Would you leave a message like this? Would you address it at all or just let it go? I know I am a ridiculous person. I actually called her office number but then hung up. I don't want to further embarrass myself. What do you think?