Go see another doctor. You got to pick yourself up by your bootstraps.

But your doctor is teaching you a good lesson. You have ADD and now you are on medication and your world is going good. Soon you will have things in order.

But what are you going to do when you find out that the rest of the world is not perfect like you? What are you going to do to be in this world while you are out of this world?

If you are depending on one person or the whole country. See you won't be so clever like you were before. Maybe you gave that up years ago anyways. If you keep your bearings then things should work out your way. Don't forget that medication is treating an illness.

These are two things you really need to buckle down. You have to secure your ability to continue functioning. You have to control your illness when you aren't. It is very important and could not repeat this enough.

Furthermore if you have a serious condition that the medication is treating, it adjusts an imbalance in your body. It takes a couple of weeks maybe two months. That could mean you will be taking more medication. The medication will plug the hole. When that happens the brain will no longer attempt to activate that part of the brain with a flood of neurotransmitters. The lack of that flood will adjust the neurotransmitters all over the body. The adjustment is the reason for the more intense feeling initially. If you don't plug the hole entirely your brain will leak. It is sickening. It's debilitating even though you are able to function better than you were before.

Eventually you will "feel" like you are not on any medication at all. You might need to take more. There is a balance that you have to find. It could at the 300mg mark. JK.

Disabuse yourself of all of the lies and preconceptions. There is nothing worse than getting stuck in the s-hole. Don't blame me I told you so.

If the world ever gets straightened out you can have the opportunity to smile and really express yourself. The medication is only ricing for a couple of weeks. If the head leaks you have no fun and you are sort of a sinking ship.

Just yesterday I got my baby niece to say thank you and she really meant it. She started putting the legos down prodigiously without frustration. I was able to get her to be careful -- quite careful and not rough. More self conscious and aware. And again she did it with passion.

It's difficult when you have only just a little time with the medication. Crack lasts longer than my good time. I even responded to my mother in elated inward humor.