Praying for your peace Moonkin. Keep your doc informed and keep working with him/her to find ways to cope and live your dreams. It will happen Moonkin. You must keep that hope and claim those dreams. The journey isn't easy but you will laugh and love and know happiness in your life. It will come because you clearly have the desire, determination and courage. Don't give up on yourself or your dreams. Fight harder cuz you are worth it. Yes, its rough and its painful but don't let that defeat you. You are a survivor.

All the best Moonkin. Keep us posted. We are here for you. Do you attend any support groups with other kids your age. Might be useful to learn you are not alone even among your peer group.